Dejected, rejected, hurt and angered

this is the first time Kdenn hurt me deeply. He says he doesn't want me and doesn't like me. Yes, i'm a fool to take his words seriously. But if you know him, he talks seriously most of the times. Furthermore, he repeated it several times.

I feel like i suffered for nothing. He doesn't know how to appreciate (yet) what my sacrifices have been, all for him. He talks back, behaves rudely to me. When i m sad, he chose to say he don't want me! Thus, i was super hurt and angry.

Reacting to his rudeness, i finally have to resort to caning him. This is the first time for 2 nights, he doesn't want to appreciate me, and say sorry to me. Even grandma tried to explain how wrong he was, he still chose to be egoistic!!! His sense of pride is shown strongly.

TO the extend of telling him, NO MILK FOR U! I even took away his all-time companion-my CD player. I m ready to see how he is dying for it, and i have to take the opportunity to punish him.

In the end, it doesn't work (yet). He is still not saying sorry. Tonight is the 2nd night. When i was sad last night, i thought he will come to give me a tap on the shoulder and encourage me. But instead, he said he doesn't like me, and walked away. This added more to my sadness last night. Thus i decided to be angry with him.

Since i m not appreciated, there is no point i sacrifice so much for him!!

I give up delicious lunches, give up sharing birthday pressies for friends and colleagues, gave up all the gatherings that require me to spend some gifts, gave up my lunch money for his monthly medications, for his stationeries that he asks for, toys he love to have, use up my fullest energy to do up all the chores to give him the best at home, give him the first approach whenever he needs in the middle of the night, protect him from virus and sickness, giving up my savings for all the precious remedies that can keep him healthy and assist in his health development so that he can catch up with the rest.
....yet, this is what i get from him.

Yes, i did not expect anything much in return. But, .... at this moment, i am just feeeling dejected. Very sad.

I wish my words can get into him to grow up to be a man of wisdom, one who knows how to use the right intention, attitude, and actions towards life and his environment.