into 5 yrs old...

my skinny little soft-hearted boy!!

1st Sports Day for Kdenn

Haven thought Kdenn can do quite well in sports....?
His first sports day experience in the relay with his classmates, won them a silver medal, his first medal in life!!
Keep it up Kdenn!!

First enrichment class

Kdenn went for his first enrichment class (outside childcare centre) in the evening on 16 March, Tuesday. Mum signed up the Creative Drawing Art Class in the evening for him after he showed interest in choosing it. It costs $60 for 12 sessions of 1.5hrs at the Punggol 21 CC which mum felt was quite reasonable and (still) affordable.

Mum left the class soon after he settled on his seat and just as the teacher has started the drawing lesson. With a little bit of worries, mum decided to wait at the general office at the CC. 9pm then walked back to the classroom, and shocked to find Kdenn missing. He was hiding at one corner, sobbing away. According to the teacher, the class has ended and he started crying because he was sad why mum was not here yet!

oh, my goodness! What an experience! But mum was happy seeing what Kdenn has done for the first drawing class!! Very happy indeed! There was a report slip attached to his work. This was impressive.... stated B+ grade for it, score 82, good for colouring and line works, though needs improvement for water colour.

At the beginning, mum was worried whether he can understand the instructions the teacher will be giving. But am very very glad, he achieved something at the end of the class!! Even though there was some sad sobbing and sense of lost, but it was worth the learning and experience mum wants to give Kdenn!!

Dejected, rejected, hurt and angered

this is the first time Kdenn hurt me deeply. He says he doesn't want me and doesn't like me. Yes, i'm a fool to take his words seriously. But if you know him, he talks seriously most of the times. Furthermore, he repeated it several times.

I feel like i suffered for nothing. He doesn't know how to appreciate (yet) what my sacrifices have been, all for him. He talks back, behaves rudely to me. When i m sad, he chose to say he don't want me! Thus, i was super hurt and angry.

Reacting to his rudeness, i finally have to resort to caning him. This is the first time for 2 nights, he doesn't want to appreciate me, and say sorry to me. Even grandma tried to explain how wrong he was, he still chose to be egoistic!!! His sense of pride is shown strongly.

TO the extend of telling him, NO MILK FOR U! I even took away his all-time companion-my CD player. I m ready to see how he is dying for it, and i have to take the opportunity to punish him.

In the end, it doesn't work (yet). He is still not saying sorry. Tonight is the 2nd night. When i was sad last night, i thought he will come to give me a tap on the shoulder and encourage me. But instead, he said he doesn't like me, and walked away. This added more to my sadness last night. Thus i decided to be angry with him.

Since i m not appreciated, there is no point i sacrifice so much for him!!

I give up delicious lunches, give up sharing birthday pressies for friends and colleagues, gave up all the gatherings that require me to spend some gifts, gave up my lunch money for his monthly medications, for his stationeries that he asks for, toys he love to have, use up my fullest energy to do up all the chores to give him the best at home, give him the first approach whenever he needs in the middle of the night, protect him from virus and sickness, giving up my savings for all the precious remedies that can keep him healthy and assist in his health development so that he can catch up with the rest.
....yet, this is what i get from him.

Yes, i did not expect anything much in return. But, .... at this moment, i am just feeeling dejected. Very sad.

I wish my words can get into him to grow up to be a man of wisdom, one who knows how to use the right intention, attitude, and actions towards life and his environment.

Happy Birthday Kdenn!!

4 yr old Birthday Party for Kdenn
~organised by Grandpa and Grandma at Balam Road

Chief Chef: Po Po

Assistant cook: Mummy

Financial controller: Daddy

Complimentary birthday cum xmas log cake from Daddy

Supporters and fans: Uncle CheeAnn and Auntie Suizeng, and sister Eliza (grabbing the cake-cutting knife from Kdenn as in the pic)

Kdenn stepping into 4yrs old...

Kdenn at Uncle Trevor's wedding at Orchid Garden on 6 Dec 09, nice ambience and he loved the phototaking moments with mummy!!

Kdenn was excited by the gigantic xmas tree at Raffles City on the day of marathon... while we were walking back to bras basah complex car park...

A little short presentation with Kdenn's classmates at his Speech and Drama class in the childcare few weeks ago... singing Rudolph the red nose reindeer... had a very shiny nose....

Trip to Kluang

Since Eliza sister was in mummy's tummy, we haven been to daddy's hometown... till last wkend... Daddy brought us back to gu-gu's new house at Kluang. We had a great time and spent our saturday night there too... I was naughty, i did not sleep well, i woke up as punctual as i always do... 7am... but we only slept at 12mn... how could i!!!? i had fun time sitting in gu-zhang's new MPV... it was a great trip... but without eliza... she's got no passport yet! haha

i rode on min-min's bicycle...

i want to ride on the motorbike may i? (general request every time we are there...)


i'm the boss in the front seat of daddy's car!

i want to be the boss at the front seat of uncle-in-law's car TOO!!

into 4yrs old...(43 months)

he and his super truck... think it's almost 2 yrs old...

yet another playful kid

Kdenn went to Granduncle Eric's house and had whole of his time fiddling with things around the living room. First was the unique bendable leg rest armchair/sofa, up and down, and up and down, again and again... next was the rocking chair, granduncle's beloved resting reading chair, was told it's all oak, and safe for kids because there's no metal or steel screws even at the rocking parts. The rocking is smooth, Kdenn was rocking hard, harder and harder, and mum stare sternly at him, (with terror and fright) to stop him from doing damage to things in the house (oh, plsss!!!)... he was enjoying his time there, talking to granduncle, answering his questions, singing the same song again and again... watching the big 50" plasma in the living room... gosh!! it's a afternoon, BUT... NO NAP, not in the least, TIRED at all!!! amazing! ... happily being snapped, chucking himself with the neck pillow as well... exploring the comfortable lower back pillow rest... bla bla bla.... aiyooooo.... as if it's HIS home!!!??? oh my boy! am i supposed to be angry or happy!?

i'm three-and-a-half

The sculpture at "C"entral...


Why he just love water fountains so much...including this!... he asked mummy to walk him down to see this, from upstairs he saw...


nice place at Forever Living showroom, where mummy buys her aloe vera products...

it was grandma's 54th birthday, and after a few weeks of looking after eliza, mum took the day off to accompany her out, and the one left out (daddy) is the bbsitter for the day !!! haha... we had tim sum for breakfast and actually nothing much, just went to get our facial products at Forever Living and then.... happen to see Central nearly so we went to have look since we've NOT been there before. i like one shop there "Maple Leaf" boutique, which have dresses which i don always see at other shopping centres. Shall get a dress there next time ;) is nice... and sweet, seems like quality, detailed in design, good material... i think is japanese product... dare not walk in to see price ( me as usual)... and grabbed a few snaps of Kdenn with my new phone... not bad! quite fun hahhaa.. this boy ah... how come like to smile until cannot see his eyes hahahaha!!! anyway, it was 19th june, Kdenn turns 3 and half yrs old, eliza turns 4 months and grandma's 54th birthday! isn't it a day worth smiling?

Gone tootoo-ing...

Gone missing lately? See no posts? heeheehee.... busy mummy is getting insane handling 2 kids at home lor...

Nope, Kdenn's NOT missing in action at all!! He has actually been busy at the train station...with Thomas and friends!!

Thanks to Auntie Pretty (Valerie Tse) for all the Thomas train toy setssss.... yeah!!! busy building his never-ending railways and sending his trains round and round the tracks!!...

His tracks are filling up the house!!!

mummy and me

This is mummy turning 30 in a week's time... with Kdenn at Pamela's wedding on 9th May 2009... what a wonderful date! It was also the Mothers' Day season.... yeah! Kdenn greeted the first "happy mother's Day" to mummy on Sunday morning 10th May 2009!!! Yes, you bet!!! so touched hor? kekeke... mmmmuacks!

Look-alike contest photo

Will we win this time??
... the Father-and-Son lookalike contest is here for our opportunity again...

::Grown-Up::

Suddenly in mummy's eyes.... Kdenn is really a Grown-Up now...

He also has a sibling now...

Guess we should be feeling "blessed"...

yes... count your blessings rather than be pondering over unhappiness and regrets...

Thoughts. Transition. Awaiting Eliza's arrival

suddenly looked back at 2008 national day's activity photos of kdenn in childcare... memories, memories, memories... compared to now... he's growing real fast... picking up words, habits, good and bad, imitating adults, commenting actions and exploring curiosity here and there.

Remembered when i was admitted to hospital in january 2009, he will look for me (i wan mama) after the 2nd night he din see me for. Can sense the power of mummy's importance and the bond. No matter how fierce and mean i can treat him, no matter how playful the daddy can be close to, he will still find me. He got fever after missing me too much at the 3rd night... and finally saw me receiving him at the Childcare the next day, can see the gladness in his face.

Thinking of the change that is going to happen in 2 wks time... i can't imagine how he is going to take it or look at it. His little sister is coming soon. There will be someone calling him brother in a few years time. Eliza is going to fight with him for things. Will he lead? Will he be proud? Will he fight? many thoughts went through my mind. How will Eliza relate him as? How will both occur together as siblings? How will Kdenn change from there?

No matter what, i know for sure one thing: I love Kdenn very much, fully, truly, mostly, no less than i am going to continue loving Eliza for, no matter how much Eliza is goin to need me for the first few important years, i know Kdenn is still as important to me. I m proud to be his mother. And i m glad that mum is somebody i can rely on to keep him going while i build up my health after delivery again.

A Birthday Party Comes True!

Finally a birthday party for Kdenn came true, after 3 years, and together was celebrated with a Housewarming at Kdenn's new house at Punggol!

Not a good time for a party indeed! is december holidays, lots can't make it, though left a few great souls who could, glad that all was fun and nice, and memorable, and happy ,... and grateful for all who could come to support this mummy's idea of --- housewarming cum kdenn's 3 year old party!! ---(mummy is 29 weeks pregnant at this time...)

CHEERS!

(The rest not in photos are: Granduncle Eric and auntie Daisy, Ah gong and family, Granny (nai-nai) and family, Yuen Wah, Sebastian and family.)

Thanks all for your gifts and memories created.

Coolz Greetings for the Xmas!!

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Winter Series Fashion Show 2008

He just loves shopping, everything also must touch touch, you touch he also want to touch.
Everything he sees also say NICE NICE, very nice... *faint!

and he was enjoying being snapped by daddy....
was at the THIS FASHION boutique - Singapore Post, after dinner on Hari Raya Haji.